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I am the Sun August 11, 2008

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You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon’s Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
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Guru Pitka May 1, 2008

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Mariska Hargitay, I honor the place where laughter and rolling on the floor become one.

I am Spider-Man !? February 21, 2008

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I don’t know what the heck if anything this means, but my sweetie yogamum took this quiz which said she was superman, which I completely agree with! Specially this week that she’s been gone visiting her sick Dad and I’ve had to deal being a single dad with Freckle Boy and Frog Girl.

Here are my results:

You are Spider-Man

Green Lantern
Iron Man
The Flash
Wonder Woman
You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.

Click here to take the “Which Superhero am I?” quiz…

Not on our first date doc! January 10, 2008

Posted by yogaspell in Ashtanga, Thoughts.

I had been thinking of switching primary physicians for some time now. My former doctor is great, very pragmatic and thorough. However, something between us never clicked and as a result there were many things I wasn’t comfortable discussing with him. This despite having been intimate with him, like only a man can be with his doctor after a prostate exam.

At any rate, yesterday I went to see a new doctor that Yogamum is also now seeing. She is extremely personable and before I knew it I was disclosing everything to her. At some point in the conversation, she suggested that since it had been two years since my last prostate exam and my father had cancer there that perhaps we ought to do an exam right then.

To which I responded quickly without even thinking: “NOT ON OUR FIRST DATE DOC!” We paused for a second and then laugh. Every time I think about it still makes me laugh, but I though I would probably be going back to her for a full physical. At that moment it was a heck more important to me to continue disclosing everything.

As we discussed lifestyle issues and exercising, we got into the subject of exercising and I mentioned that I was back to training twice a week but that for some reason while I had fallen in love with Ashtanga Yoga, I couldn’t bring myself back to the mat. It just didn’t feel like a real practice, and it just couldn’t compare to the times I’ve practiced with Annie Pace or Guruji.

She just looked at me and without missing a beat, told me that my homework was to do yoga at least once before I see her again at the end of month. What the heck? Homework from a doctor??? But she didn’t stop there, we continue talking about how even a few poses a practice makes. Consistency and the connection to that something else is what is important. That is when I knew right then and there that she would be my new doctor. It was as if Annie Pace and Guruji were right there in the room. Just practice. Practice and all is coming!

I guess that is one homework I’ll definetely be doing…


Flight back to Colorado December 27, 2007

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After spending Christmas with Yogamum‘s family, I flew back by myself last night.  Unfortunately, a sweet kid right behind me was very sick and throwing up most of the trip.  Which made me think of the following:

  • Bose noise canceling head phones — $300
  • iPod with tons of music and movies — $200
  • Nasty cold that kept my nose completely stuffed up — PRICELESS

A very smooth trip.   Just me and the girls: Tori Amos,  Sia …

Analyze this! November 29, 2007

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Our family is going through a tough patch. Yogamum‘s dad is in intensive care and we are all struggling with balancing the emotional side of things, trying to maintain a sense of stability for the kids, and what is the best use of our time and energy for the ultimate benefit of my father and mother in law.

When I first heard the news on Tuesday I told Yogamum that she could get on a plane to be with her dad the second she wanted. Not to worry, I would take care of things at home.

She decided to wait a little bit and see if we got more news, a prognosis of some sort. Last night she asked me again for my opinion on the subject and in the process of trying to balance things out I gave a cold and what I thought a balanced suggestion. Trying to be the stable figure and thinking that at some point she (and perhaps even with myself) would need to be there to relieve her mom and be there for as long as needed.

But at that moment she wasn’t looking for the balanced analytical partner, she was looking for her unconditional loving partner and it came out wrong. Way wrong!

There is a wide range of possibilities as to how all of this could pan out and being in two different states makes it hard for Yogamum and I to try to plan things. It is a control thing, and when you are about to unravel emotionally the last thing you need is someone analyzing contingencies.

I knew that…

Hugs and prayers. Namaste.

Better stop cheering for anyone this year… October 29, 2007

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So last night as I watched the Colorado Rockies get swept by the Boston Red Sox, it hit me. No professional sport team or athlete that I’ve rooted for this year has won. I’m actually 0 for 6!

So here is a recap of the events, in no particular order:

  1. Men’s Soccer – Spanish League (Barcelona)
  2. Woman’s Soccer – World Cup (US Team)
  3. Racing – Formula 1 championship (Fernando Alonso)
  4. Tennis – US Open (Rafael Nadal)
  5. Sailing – America’s Cup (OracleBMW Racing)
  6. Baseball (Colorado Rockies)

I don’t believe on curses, but I’m beginning to feel like the cooler.

Clichés galore… January 11, 2007

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I’m sure you have heard them all. Probably used many of them. I’m talking about romantic clichés. I confess, I’m a hopeless romantic. I love lines like “you complete me” (or any variation on the other half theme) “I cannot live without you” (or any variation on needing), “You are my soul mate”, etc…. I’m also a very principled person so I have placed huge value on the commitment to the relationship.

Among many things, Yoga continues to teach me about attachment and about being in the present. Before Yoga I used to think that needing your partner, completing them, being committed to them, was the strength of my relationship with Yogamum.

It is so hard to let go. It reminds of that other great cliché “If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it’s yours. If it doesn’t, it never was” Sting even wrote a song about it and there are tons of funny variations to it.

But to imagine waking up in the morning with absolutely no strings attached and to look at your partner with 100% freedom to leave with no guilt takes a little getting used to. It is somewhat impossible to do in real life. There are strings and there are consequences.

But isn’t that the biggest gift you can give someone? So I have one last cliché for you: “I’m with you today, because I choose to be.” What more could a yogi ask of his or her partner?

Back to the mat January 5, 2007

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Today I returned to the mat for the first time in months. My wife, Yogamum, and I had a good practice. I cannot say that it was the best practice by any stretch. We only did standing poses with a few more poses added and then finishing. Yogamum was having trouble with her back; I was having a lesson in humility, realizing that how stiff I was despite all my regular exercising. The stiff-white-man moniker fit me like a glove.

But I was so happy to have returned, to breathe into the poses and feel my body stretch. I did a headstand near the wall and the inversion felt so incredibly good. I came down slowly into Urdhva Dandasana and held it for a lot longer than normal. It was a little gift in an otherwise pretty mundane practice, and it reminded me why I love the Ashtanga practice.

It’s good to be back…

Because I want to … January 4, 2007

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Well… It is the beginning of the year, the time for New Year’s resolutions. I’m usually big on those every year. Making a list, committing to doing what is on it and having a excellent track record.

Not this year. I didn’t make a New Year’s resolution list for 2007 and I’m not going to.

These sorts of lists have been positive in many ways for me. For example, it was because of a New Year’s resolution that I joined a gym in 2004 and started working with a trainer.  But too often they contribute to the all or nothing, perfectionist mentality that I have. Sure I get things done, but too often I do not enjoy the process, the journey.

This is not to say, that I’m not going to take advantage of the New Year to pursue things, just that I’d like to have a different perspective as to why I’m doing them.

I’m going to join my wife in NaYoPracMo. Not because I have any hope of actually practicing 31 days straight since I already missed several. I’m going to join her in many of the practices because I want to. So despite being the first casualty, failure, whatever of NaYoPracMo, I’m going to practice as often as I can this month. It is National Yoga Practice Month at our home so what better reason. If I miss a day, if the practice is not perfect, who cares, just get back to the mat and practice.

I’m also blogging again for much the same reason. I like to write and get things out of my mind. But too often I get wrapped up on the need to have something profound to say or to be writing frequently. I don’t know who reads this, it helps me, and if it brightens a single soul more that is purely gravy and good.

So my new goal, no lists this year, is to pursue what I love simply because I want to.